October 9 2017 The Mask

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For those of you who have never had a mask made to purposefully hold you down without moving. This is my mask it is perfectly fitted by my face neck and shoulders. This was stretched over me and was molded by my features, when it set there was no moving. The next adventure for me is coming on Wednesday when I go to Blackwell Towers and lay on a table and this will be placed over me on a machine table and screwed into place. I will be locked into place as the technicians will setup the machine to do my radiation. This day will be the mapping that will allow them to do the actual work on Thursday. They will locate three places on the Brain and one on my C Spine. The X marks a reference spot to where the 12 lasers will be guided to each spot of cancer to a pinpoint location to effectively kill it. Then they will move to the next spot ands so on until all is done. As the Technicians were making this they were talking me through what they were doing. As you can imagine this can be a little unnerving as you literally not move. You cough you do not move you sneeze you do not move unless they let you go. The voices of those around me telling me what was happening had a soothing effect to calm me as they worked. When I go back on Thursday I will be in this for a long time 20 to 30 minutes for each spot of Cancer invading my brain. So that will be three on the brain and one on the C-Spine. You can do the math it will be a long time.

As I think on the process there are things that come to mind.

One of those things will be the people who will be so kindly be talking me through what is happening,

Another is the precision of the work of the machine to do the work to kill the cancer, twelve beams of light precisely pointed to one minute spot.

There has been much preparation to perfect this treatment for me.

Outside of this room there will be people praying for the success of the treatment from Ukraine, England & Panama. Closer to home there will be people all over the southeast and some even in the north.

There will be a friend waiting and praying as the procedure is done, ready to carry me home when they are done.

There will be my Lord guiding the hands and minds of the Physicians as they work guiding his own creation (Radiation) to my cure.

Now let me guide you to all of the thoughts above and hopefully tie God’s Handiwork together in all of this.

My sweet wife gave me some words of wisdom a day ago and I have been processing them since. She simply told me ” God has given you the best.” Now I did look at her like a cow looking at a new gate. But then she explained such a profound statement.

God gave you cancer but we have been told it is the BEST you could possibly get, The Non- Small Cell Carcinoma I have is a slow growth as well as the type which is called Adenocarcinoma. The Oncologist said we have more success with this type over any other type. We have more medicines and more treatment options for this one type.

She then told me God had given me the BEST Doctors and the best Facility to go for treatment. Everyone we have talked to has raved about how everyone was the best, kindest and most compassionate people they had met.

I was reminded that I had the BEST Church supporting me. So many people praying and sending words of encouragement as well as people taking of our needs that I can not do for now without being asked.

She reminds me God Had given me the BEST Friends and Family that anyone could wish for.

WOW God does love me! He has given me the best of everything. Just look at the list above and then think of the time, effort invested for me in the precision alignment by man and machine to give me the BEST treatment that could be given. Yes and my Lord will be with me under that mask giving me thoughts of encouragement as we talk during this log time of immovability.

I have to agree with a friend  during the time in the MRI, CT Scan and now this, this time has become some of my best prayer time. It is amazing how fast time goes when you are in communion with the Father as you go through these things.

YES GOD HAS GIVEN THE BEST. But the biggest question today is have I given him my BEST? My friends have you given your best to Him? I know I am saved by grace, at times I am still a wicked sinful man. I yet haven’t given him my best. I think I have been given and example by the Father above and the bar is set high.

This man is receiving the Best of God’s Love, Mercy and Grace. I will strive to begin now giving back to Him the Best that God deserves from me. Just like the mask in the picture above is a perfect image of me, I will strive to be a perfect image of my Savior.

What my friend will you do.

I dearly and deeply LOVE You each and everyone thank you for your prayers and words of encouragement.

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  1. I have witnessed many battle cancer in my life time. Cancer took my Grandfather, Grandmother, Dad, Mother, Sister,and many other family. I have never wept for any of them like I am at this moment. You have just spoke of a time in your life that is very much like the time I had a life changing moment. It was the day that I realized that Jesus gave His life for me. I am thinking David had this feeling when he wrote, ” Psalm 23 The Lord is my Shepherd [to feed, to guide and to shield me],
    I shall not want.
    2
    He lets me lie down in green pastures;
    He leads me beside the still and quiet waters.
    3
    He refreshes and restores my soul (life);
    He leads me in the paths of righteousness
    for His name’s sake.
    4
    Even though I walk through the [sunless] [a]valley of the shadow of death,
    I fear no evil, for You are with me;
    Your rod [to protect] and Your staff [to guide], they comfort and console me.
    5
    You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies.
    You have anointed and refreshed my head with [b]oil;
    My cup overflows.
    6
    Surely goodness and mercy and unfailing love shall follow me all the days of my life,
    And I shall dwell forever [throughout all my days] in the house and in the presence of the Lord.
    Eddie I ask that Jesus will remove the cancer from your body. To give good health that gives all that see His work in your life, makes our faith in Him stronger.

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  2. I recently met your precious Krishna at my Emmaus Walk and was instantly taken with her sweet smile.. My husband and I are following your journey and we will pray daily without ceasing because we serve a living, loving God who is able to do ALL things.. God bless you and your family may He surround you all with His peace and comfort in knowing that we serve the one who loves us so much more than we can begin to know..

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  3. Eddie,
    I’ve been in THAT room receiving radiation treatments. It will be a very calm and low lit place, if it is like mine was. The technicians will watch you the whole time…just like our Heavenly Father will be watching you with love in His eyes.
    Prayers for peace and healing. Anything new is a little scary.

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  4. I see God all over this post; it nearly takes my breath completely away! The being held down and kept still for our good, for our healing, out of His great love. I’ll have to re-read this. I’ve been overwhelmed with the Father’s love. I hope you feel it every step of the way. Prayers for you! He does love you, so!

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  5. Eddie,
    My prayers for you comes from Psalm 30
    Almighty God,free Eddie from anxiety over what he cannot control.
    Restore his deepest trust in you so that he can always rejoice and be thankful…
    Hold him in a peaceful spot as the Doctors do their part in his gift of healing .
    In the mighty name of Jesus, Amen

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